I Used to be Smart

So this weekend my parents gave me a box of my stuff that they found in their storage shed. As I went through the box I found an AP scholar award- I jokingly held it up to Cam and said "Look your wife used to be smart." (to be honest I forgot I ever was an AP scholar) Of course he just laughs at me but the truth is, when I look at my life now and my life as a student I sometimes wonder what happened. I do not feel smart like I used to. I told my sister what I had said to Cam and she said "you're still smart you just use it in a different way. " I agree that I am not some dummy on the street but I think it is hard to feel smart as a mom and pre-school teacher. Sure I know more than the 4 year olds but, they are constantly challenging what I thought I was good at. This last year of teaching has been a total overhaul of every technique I ever used. But that is another subject all together. Have you ever read one of your old High School or College essays and thought man that person sounds like they know their stuff. Now I am lucky if I can get out a coherent sentance once or twice a week. So what happened. Why can I not punctate a sentence correctly or spell with out spell check. Where along the line did I loose that knowledge?
I always joke that my kids were made from my brain cells- anyone who has become a mom might agree with that. But really I used to use big words!! Now it is all about dolls and dinos, bugs and babies. I just hope that one day I will be able to reconnect with the scholar in me. Until then though I will say I used to be smart.

The Birthday Conundrum

As we get closer and closer to Bears 2nd birthday I ask myself this question. Should it really be this hard to figure out what to get a two year old girl for her birthday? No brainer right.... not for me. Am I the only one that has this problem. Stuffed animals- no we already have like 600, clothes- yes but we already got one outfit so we need to find something cooler than that. Dress-ups good but everything I see I could probably make myself and it is all soo expensive, movies- does she really need to watch more TV, a bike, got that already, a kitchen got that already- Plus how much it too much to spend on your kid for their birthday. 30, 40 50 dollars. But I think I have come to the root of the problem. As I look around my house all I can think of is what can I get that will not just end up strewn about. What will be easy for me? OH NO here comes the mommy guilt!! I just need to stop thinking about what I would like and get her what she would like. Any suggestions?

I Did This All By Myself

So anyone that has every seen me try to do anything on a computer will be proud to know me today because.... I put this blog together by myself. Cam did not have to help me at all- in fact he is at work so I couldn't even ask for help if I needed it. He will be very impressed when he gets home and, you should all be too. I started this blog because everyone (okay 2 people) said I should join in. So I thought I should give it a try. Maybe if I type a blog every now and then I will feel like I am talking to an adult. As a mom and pre-school teacher those moments of feeling like you are conversing with a grown-up about grown up things are few and far between. So here it goes. I am not great at sticking to projects so we will see......